Wednesday, April 11, 2012

All-consuming Vortex

It is so very easy to consume. I spent about an hour and a half today watching someone else play Kid Icarus. I spent another half an hour playing Tetris Battle. Another forty-five minutes on Star Trek: Voyager and Fringe each. Twenty minutes of forum-surfing of Guild Wars 2 Guru. My wife has been watching NCIS on and off all day.

Even now, as the day winds down, I'm listening to Tonight Alive and fighting the urge to play more Tetris while I try to write this blog post.

I like to call myself a writer, but I spend much more of my time consuming what other people have produced—outside of my own field—than I do practicing my craft. I even have a hard time generating original thoughts to discuss the things I consume.

It hasn't been a bad day. In fact, it's been an awesome day. My wife is super happy. We had lasagna hamburger helper for dinner. I enjoyed geeking out about English grammar for an hour this morning.

Sometimes I do feel like a failure for not doing a lot of writing, but tonight I'm just struck by how weird it is that I spend so much time watching, reading, playing, instead of writing, composing, or enjoying the outdoors.

Not that the sleet made the outdoors a desirable alternative today.

So yeah, that's what's on my mind today. Maybe forcing myself to blog at least once a day will help keep this in focus or even—Heaven forbid—lead me to change my ways. We'll see.

Once again, this is me shrugging.

1 comment:

Susan said...

I don't think you're alone. Writers in general, especially in today's technology heavy world, are bombarded by inane things that eat up our time. I could play Bejeweled Blitz for hours and it would barely register until I noticed the time. Thankfully my internal voice screams loud enough to get off the internet that I can listen. Don't worry, you're a fantastic writer. Quantity doesn't always outweigh quality.

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